So Kill Me...

Its one of those days
where u just feel lyk ur
legs r goin to fall off.

Ur mind is depressed but
its telling u to go on.

I mean being a teacher
is tough.

a student care teacher! not
just any ordinary tcher.

I have a new found respect
for tchers.
U dont noe what politics go
on in a place man!

well. i wont bitch on my
blog. not worth my hand energy.

ok.

so now im a tcher.

yeh. at mercu student care centre
wdlands 351.
so weird to think myself
as a tcher cos its been only 2 months
since i called others tcher n
depended on them.

culture shock.
now others depend on me.

well. e job is nt depressing. haha.
god no! yes i say my mind is depressed
but thts cos of other thngs as well n cos
my mind is trying to block off
as much negative energy as possible.
see i dont want to go down to e pt
of breaking down n shutting dwn.

im supposed to enjoy my post alevels.
n yeah i am in a way. but of course
nothngs perfect.

n im nt only bothered by e thngs tht
go along behind my job.
but by everything else im thnking bout
in my life.

ie.
ME missing my frens.
they nt toking to me for SO long.
Having a New n Scary life now filled
with responsibilities.
bout HIM. (secret lover). bahahah!

all these cramming into one thought.
im surprised im not insane yet.

i guess wht keeps me sane is tht i
noe tht i have a job n no matter wat
happens at the back, i have to fulfill it
well. thts just my priniciple.

oh gosh. seriously, 'nice guys finish last'.
cos im being good... this is wht happens to
me. its lyk karma upside down.

haiz.

well. lets tok bout the positive side k.

not all is bad bout my new life n job.
i mean im loving my job!
my cute kids! irritatingly cute.
hahah.
its a fulfilling job. nt mundane...
filled with fun.

hmm. so far im understanding
e duties of my job.

i handle it ok.

i hope to do better.

i can be a workaholic sometimes
now den i realise.

I LOVE MY KIDS!
IM LOYAL TO MY PLACE!

but sometimes u cant take it.
i see how it goes in jan.

hopefully by den i can attach
my legs to its ori position.

*wish me luck*