New Hypothesis:

That he could actually like
me!?

no way in hell!

but i dono... it's fizah hu made
this hypothesis.

Well there is hope den.
but... i guess im not goin
to put all hopes into it.
i mite get disappointed with
him.

Oh the 'him' i am talking about...
is the person i always tok abt
on my blog. heh.

well.. if he does lyk me i thnk
it is stup tht he didnt say
anythng. gosh if he did ask
me... i will say YES straight
away!!! :)

heh. well.. fizah says she has
exp with these kinda guys.
they don say anythng bcos
they don want to play with
the hearts of those they care
for most...

awww... yeh... lyk thts ever
gonna happen. gosh. thts
fizah's hypothesis...

i dono.

if it is true... i wld tell him:
U won ever hurt me! cos the
day i'm with u is the day i'm e
happiest. :)

i read a cool chain letter
on frenster. its e first chain letter
i ever called COOL. but yeh..
its abt 10 signs tht u lyk someone.
n then... one of it says tht...
wen
ur reading this, ur thnking of tht
person.

n i WAS! i was thnking bout him.
but he's prob not thnking bout me.

haiz...

well... i really hope fizah's hypothesis
is true. if it is... i want him to
tell me he does like me :)

gosh. that will be the happiest
day of my life so far!

Drain the pressure from the Swelling

I HATE MATHS!!!

Maths paper yest was an
ASS.

It really make me DRAINed.
I then became PRESSUREd.
And my head had a SWELLING.

Someone please just
give me novacaine!

ROCKers

Gosh.
the other day... on sun
i thnk. i was up all night.

yeh. cos the reality
shows on tv are really
addictive. i got hook on it
after wtching for just 5
mins.

haha.

anyways tht day i wtched
Fear Factor twins special.
yep they're twins. they
look very identical. :)
there were 2 girl teams n 2
guy teams. so... the girl
teams r made up of:

-- 2 white bimbos, 2 bithy blacks

the guys:

-- 2 rednecks, 2 rocking moehogs

n the rednecks r chiseled...
they're very macho...
athletic... bodies like greek
gods. if greek gods do have muscular
bodies. haha.

yeh... BUT
norm gurls wld fall for them...
BUT i LOVE the moehog guys.
haha. they're lyk... blond.. skinny...
the host said they weigh abt
120 pnds each (abt 60kg)

BUT they're fucking hot to me.
haha. well. i DIG rockers. :P
yummy.
bluek! haha.
well there's just somethng abt
rockers tht make them look so
laid-back... so... cool. n have e
i dont care abt the world attitude.
n they're charismatic... funny.

haha.

unlike the boring macho guys.

i was rooting for the Moehog
twins all the way! haha.
n they WON! in e end woohoo!
they won 3/4 challenges. cool.

this is the pic of them...










abit of info abt them...




Name: Nathan Leone/Matthew Leone
Hometown: Chicago,IL
Occupation: Musicians

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haiz. i have a soft spot..
lyk a fettish for these kinda guys.
so turn on-ing. hehehe.
rockers... woohoo! even tho
they're not cute... the twins
r blond, moehog-ed n have
cute dimples. :)

wen they smile... i melt. haha.
u can say tht it is a weird taste...
but i just love these kinda guys.
they're relli cute. (in a cool way)
im prob gonna marry a rocker
one day. :)

I'm gonna make this short and sweet

When I was upset and in a bad
mood 2 days ago...
there's this song tht kept playing
in my head. (e song lyrics is shown below)

i guess it shows all my anger
n frust towards tht certain
someone.

but sadly im more disappointed
with him.

i hate it tht...
we r both in 2 diff worlds right
now. he's with his new frens...
well im glad i did tok to him
on tht day...

but wht can i say... thngs r diff
now. i hate it.

now im listening to blink 182 songs.
yeh... the song playing now is
"first date". such a sweet funny
song. :)
i love them. one of my fave bands.
no.2 on my list. :)

see... me n him r so similar. (we
like the same kinda bands... n
songs...
i noe wht kinda music he like.)
yet he dont see it. pple dont see
it. only i see it. haiz...

so the blink 182 songs...
they're relli great. there's this
song: anothe girl another planet.
well i thnk i shld call it another
guy another planet in my case...
cos he's in another planet now.

yeh... n does he have flings
with other gurls? im so insecure
at tht part. i will just faint if
i noe he's with someone else.

wen i heard he's close with dis
gurl... to the pt of toking to her
on the phone for hours... sound
like he is replacing me. haiz. but
i noe she will never replace me.
cos me n him... our closeness..
haiz... its diff. other girls wont
care for him as much as i do...
he doesnt see tht either. sad...

argh. i cant stop thnking abt him.

so... i'm gonna make this
"Short and Sweet"

(a bit changed tho... to suit my
mood n situation)

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'Short and Sweet'
by Matchbook Romance
(a band HE doesnt like ;T
- if he reads this post... I thnk
he will noe im toking abt him...
if he doesnt, he's stupid.)

"I'm gonna make this short and sweet
i'm gonna let my heart speak
i've been so mad cause you treat me bad
but thats not what i would do

cause id kill for you
i'd do these things that i know she wouldnt do
i write these words and i want the truth
why cant i be with you
why cant i be the girl for you

she breaks your heart and she tells you lies
why do guys always for these girls
she never bothers to listen to you
but thats not what i would do

i'd kill for you
i'd do these things that i know she wouldnt do
i write these words and i want the truth
why cant i be with you
why cant i be the girl for you

why cant i be the girl for you..

i'd kill for you
i'd do these things that i know she wouldnt do
i write these words and i want the truth
why cant i be with you

i'd kill for you (id kill for you id kill for you)
i'd do these things that i know she wouldnt do
i write these words and i want the truth
(i cry for you i cry for you)
why cant i be with you
why cant i be the girl for you"

If all else fails

I love this song!!!

This song is dedicated to him... (ahem2)
and also to all those experiencing
hard love. :T

*emo all the way*

Song: If all else fails
by Matchbook Romance

A subdued silence undisturbed by the sound of her breath.
So carefully, brush her hair back from her eyes
In steady sequence, one by one.
She slips away.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go my heart remains with you.

And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my exsistance
Is laying here in front of me.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go

And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I.
And if all else fails you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you.
I'll be the one by your side.

So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know,
My heart remains with you.

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side track a bit...
im gonna write down a blow by
blow detail of the vietnam trip
i had recently. :)