I'm speechless and redundant

about... Innova's Speakers Award.

I totally didnt expect it.
As I walked on stage with
only a mike to bank on,
I was terrified as hell.

But I just went on.

And with familiar faces all
around me...
I felt like...
bursting out laughing.

I was multi-tasking as I
spoke. While I was speaking,
I was trying to flip my notes,
looking at the audience, looking
at them stone, trying to see
wht the judges were looking at
and trying to see if someone was
there watching me.

hah.

wow. not as easy as it sounds.
definitely. 3mins only... yet it
seemed lyk hours.

its not my first time speaking
or performing. i don't have
much probs with stage fright.
but i have a prob with my
confidence and self esteem.

so when i won... i relli didnt
expect it. :) i was smiling ear
to ear like a bafoon but i
didnt care. haha. :D

and best of all...
pple did care. e one i wanted
to care wasnt there.
the one i ddnt expect cared.
n i was damn happy bout
tht.

the first person to msg me
after i spoke... i ddnt expect
tht at all. wow.

tht made my day EVEN MORE
than it cld have already been
made. :)

actually, i was sick on tht day.
tht brought me down-ner. but
i did my best. n i guess...
hikmah di sebalik my sickness...
i hope tht goes e same for my
gp...
argg i didnt finish summary!!!


hah. bt thts over. i did my best.
wht can i say.

Hmmm. wht else...
oh yeah. the diff. btw
performing music n
speaking... is VERY BIG.
haha.

when i'm with my band, i have
others to bank on.
if i perform solo, im at my comfort
zone cos i have my guitar.
my precious guitar is like
my rock. somehow when i
perform with my guitar
i dont feel scared.

it gives me inspiration.
i love it. :)

but... when i speak with
my voice... argh! fear rises.
haha.

but its weird. im so glad.
this is e 1st time i got
first for an oratorical
contest. at jc some more!
hah. e most i got 2nd
at crescent...

tats e part im so dumfounded
abt...
haiz...
im so lucky. im relli loving
life. besides alevel stress
haunting me... life's great. haha.

ohh. n i love it tht all
e pple arnd me... my frens
n family r happy for me.
alot of u congratulate me.
thnx loads guys!! :)
i keep saying thnks on tht
day. i wanted to say more
than tht to my frens.
but im too speechless. hah.

so sincerely my thnx to all
hu congrat. me n r happy
for me!

i'm relli happy. :)

gosh. wish u were there. :T